I've been working on this site a lot, but not actually uploading anything to Neocities!! And I want to change that!! So I removed my janky CSS file for now while I rehaul everything on it, and am gonna add that back when I'm done fixing the numerous things I don't like about it lol. Please be patient with me while I figure this all out, thank you!!
The internet should be ours, not theirs.
So... I've always been someone who's way too obsessed with online spaces. I don't know why, but even as a child, I was just fascinated by them. I didn't participate, I was too scared, but I was enamored with the internet. Maybe it's because I struggled to make friends as a child, maybe I was just curious, who knows.
I think I was always 'meant' to end up trying to learn web development. Being obsessed with the internet as a kid, I obviously tried some little projects by myself. I was the tech kid, you know? People came to me when their laptops weren't working. But I'm not really a 'tech kid' anymore, though some people might tell you otherwise. I don't know much about hardware, or programming, etc. I use a lot of privacy-focused tools and have some level of customization on my devices, which I guess gives the impression that I'm tech-savvy to some people, but I'm really not lol.
I'm getting sidetracked. Basically, I was bound to try learning HTML and CSS at some point, being the internet-obsessed 'tech person' and all. But it's not just that; I'm sick of the modern web landscape. I hate how people are mass-manipulated by huge corporations and are just... fine with it, half the time. I know I'm not immune or anything, but I just wish more people would try to escape, you know?
I'm learning web dev because of both personal interest and a promise to myself that I will not allow anyone to own my creativity. I'm not just talking about literal ownership, I'm talking about owning my headspace too. I refuse to allow corporations to control what I create for the sake of engagement, I will not let them arbitrarily determine the value of what my human brain and hands create through ridiculous metrics. I will carve out my own damn space to exist on the internet without any corporations hovering over me to ensure I'm doing things in a way that serves their manipulative tendencies. I WILL NOT be anyone's product, it will be my OWN space.
Sorry for the rambling. I just wanted to write down my thoughts, no matter how disorganized.